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So lately I have been thinking about the time when I lived in Raleigh, NC! I really enjoyed living there and the friends that I made. I have been thinking about why I had so much fun while I lived there and why I don't have as much fun anymore. I think that I figured out why I'm not as happy anymore! Also how I'm going to fix things.

1- I listened to music all of the time! - like all of the time I think that the only time that I didn't listen to music or have music in the back round is when I was sleeping. So now I need to listen to music again!

2- I didn't care what people thought of me. I was an out of town er and once I got to town I didn't care what people thought. I was comfortable with myself and just did whatever.

3- I played soccer and I was told that I was good at it my a group of Hispanic guys! Out of all of the people that were there I was the only girl that played and I was the only white person that played.

So I think that I want to start up some of these things again. I don't mean playing soccer with a bunch of Hispanic males, but I would like to play soccer again. I think that I will dance and listen to music more often.


I really don't know the purpose of this blog but I just feel that I need to write it down some were and let some people know!

I want to laugh, sing and enjoy life! I have been getting better but looking back at pictures of me in NC it made me think that I want to be that girl again. Not a care in the world how or what others thought of me. I enjoyed that life so much and was so happy. Now just to get that back. I think that I am going to stop typing now and look for a soccer team indoor or outdoor is my only thing that I feel that I need to worry about!.

Oh yeah I'm going to get rid of my car! I am going to sell it to a auto dealership and get my in laws Tahoe! I have always wanted a truck or an SUV so excited!

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So this week I have realized that I am not a very happy joyful person! Sad I know! I want to be a happy joyful person. I don't know when I changed from being happy and joyful to being a grump and crabby.
I am going to work on that! I also want to work on many other things, but I think tha being happy will help me work and be better on the other things!
Any one have any pointers on how to be happy? One thing that I'm going to try is play soccer again. In the last few weeks (month and a half) I have been watching Andrew play football and it makes me so much miss playing soccer. I remember being happy when I played. Now it is just trying to find a team to play on!