Curve Ball

Sometimes in my life I feel like curve balls are thrown in my direction left and right! There are so many things that make life difficult. Lately in my life I just don't know what to do! A lot of the time I just run through the motions of doing things until i get frustrated with the way I'm living. I know that it is bad habit. But how do you break a bad habit.

I have a few goals to get myself out of this self destruction this year.

Goal one is to lose weight! I am exercising 3 days a week and eating better! So far I think that I have lost 10 lbs! I really don't know because every time I weigh myself I do it on a different scale. I feel better about myself when I do work out. I actually get the urge to go out for runs! - thats a first.

Goal two! Try to be a happier person and don't forget what I have. There is a lot behind this one! I am one to tend to forget what I have. I am so set in my ways of being independent that I feel like I can not depend on anyone else. I don't know how to get out of that and that is what I really need to work on I guess. I take my husband and step son for granted a lot. that is all I can say about that one for now.

Goal Three. Stop being a jealous person. I am jealous of almost everyone and any relationship. I feel that everything that I touch destructs because of me and my jealousy. I don't know how to change it. I hate hurting because I hurt others!

Sorry for these sad downer goals but they are what I need to work on.