Week

Sunday again!

I have a love hate relationship with Sundays! I love Sundays because I get to spend them relaxing taking in what I have accomplished for the week and weekend! I hate Sundays because Rick has to go back to work Monday morning and I have to figure out what to accomplish for the up coming week.

Last week was really productive and I am hoping that this upcoming week is productive as well. I am hoping that maybe I will be able to do some more canning and or freezing of foods, get more scrap booking done and workout - want to get back to that bikini body that I some what had in high school! Maybe this week I can add something else in to my to be done list! Wait I don't have one of them right now need to start it asap! Oh yeah and last week I read 2 books I am hoping to finish one more this week and then another next week. That is if I don't go back to work before I can finish the ones that I have!

Things that I really want to do this week are:
-Learn more healthy recipes
-walk the dog everyday so she gets exercise
-work on scrap booking - get more pictures developed
-Figure out a meal plan for myself


I don't know what else these are just things that just popped into my head. So we will see what all gets done! Now I have to go and get things ready for the week!

Life's Challenges

Life in general brings challenges!

One of my biggest challenges in life has been to find a hobby! I think that I have finally found some hobbies that I really enjoy and that will take time to do!

I am trying to start scrap booking and I am totally excited to be doing this. Today I even went out to Jo-Ann's today and got some stuff to get me started. I almost saved as much as I spent Can you say SALE!! Anyways now I have to get all of our pictures developed and organized so I can do something with them.

I also have been doing some canning with my mum. We have canned jam and some green beans. I am excited to try canning some other things as well I want to even trying to freeze some things.
These are some of the things in my life that are exciting challenges now.
So for the more difficult challenges in my life. It is difficult to say this but I have an issue with my weight! In the last 4 years I have gained a significant amount of weight. I am not happy about this and I have to learn how to deal with it so I can hopefully lose weight in the next year. I want to get back to my weight in high school! I don't know what it is going to take, i know that it will take some work on my part. Well not just some work a lot of work. I am the one that let me get to where I am at know!
With trying to lose weight I feel that now that I have a hobby to take up time I will be going to food less and less! Doing that will help me out a lot. I will have to find some healthier recipes so that I can change the way that my family eats. I am excited about the new changes that are coming to my life.
Another difficult thing that I have had to deal with in my life is happiness! Sometimes I don't feel happy I feel sad and don't know what to do with myself. Having hobbies and eating healthier I believe are going to help me be happy with myself and happy in life. There are so many of my life challenges that just run together. IS that the way it is with everyone. That once one thing falls into place everything seems to follow? I really hope that this is going to work for me. I have seen so many people be successful in their lives that I now want to be successful with myself.

Thank you to all the people in my life for all the support and examples that you are to me. You all have helped me to find a happier me.

December!

I looked at the calender today and I had to change the month to December! It really make me think that I am so behind on my Holiday shopping! I really don't shop too much but I can't even bring myself to want to go into Bellingham at all. I have been trying to find out what I want to get Andrew for Christmas but I can't think of anything that the boy will want! I feel that I have to get something totally cool that is completely over board... I don't know why but I just do. Maybe it is because all the kid wants for Christmas is a quad!

I thought I knew what I wanted to get everyone for Christmas but I really have no clue! I have 8 people to by for this year! I only have one person figured out Now to try and figure out everyone else!

So, I have told you before that I am trying to live a healthier life style! It is very difficult to do so! There are so many temptations out there! Like donuts for example! Someone in my office today got donuts for everyone! Its been like 3 or 4 week since I have had one but I caved today and ate one! I don't feel as full as I would if I would have eaten my cream of wheat! Now that I have eaten a donut I just feel gross. I know that I haven't done the greatist but I have done better that what I was doing. I make a home made dinner every night! Some nights it sucks but I have been really creative lately and the hubby loves it!
I will keep you posted on how I am doing! OH yeah next year I want to be able to jog 3 miles with out stopping! Lets see how that goes! WOOT WOOT!

Motivation to Move - Not So Much

I look at so many people who are Motivated to Move! How are you so Motivated! Yes I want to lose the weight... I have challenged myself to a better me by Christmas (44 days). I just feel that I am too Fat to get my butt out there and move it! I know that there are bigger people out there than me that do it. How do they get motivated? Do I take pictures of myself and look at them daily and get my motivation that way! The truth is I really don't want to be living my life a big as I am! I am so uncomfortable in my skin! I am trying to eat healthy, and yes I am proud of myself that I have been doing this since Saturday, but I tend to give up on myself day after day! I know that if I just eat healthy I will lose some of what I have put on but How am I going to see the results! I want to get the results now not later! I want to be the old me again!

I have always been self conscious about my weight this is just the first time that I have come out and told the world. Even when I was a decent weight I thought that I was Fat! How do you get rid of those feelings and how do you appreciate the way that you look!

I am going to have to be harder on myself! More strict about how much I eat and what I eat! No I am not cutting out carbs I just want to eat better carbs!

This weekend I am going to make whole wheat bread and hoggie rolls! I am going to make noodles and try to have noodle dough around more often! I would like to make tortillas!

I notice that I have a lot of wants and I need to make those things NEEDS Because I need to do this for myself. I am my own worst enemy! No one else can tell me not to do it or tell me to do it! I just need to get off of my lazy butt and do it! I know that this is a downer blog I just needed to let you all know that Eating health all the time sucks! I am going to let myself have a few snacks but they can't be like really unhealthy! I am staying away from preservatives and trying to make everything myself! I know that my husband is enjoying the new foods that I am cooking! Some are different! If he doesn't like something he will let me know!

I am trying to put together a cook book for us of foods that we enjoy eating as a family. We will see how that one goes! If you have any recipes that you would like us to try just let me know and I will try them out!

Inspiration

People tend to get inspiration in different places! For me I try and get my inspiration from other and their real life stories! I try to do my best to be my best because I know that other do it as well! I may not be good at anything but being the best I can be is what I can to for you!

Lately I have been reading a woman's blog that is kind of my inspiration to keep up on my weight loss! She has been trying and trying to loose weight and doesn't ever seem to keep it off... I can totally relate to this woman! I have never talked to her or anything. I don't know if she knows but I think that just her writing things like

"The more I struggle, the less I want to share. When we write about issues,
and triumphs the people in our lives start seeing us as those things. "fat girl
trying to lose weigh" and then we see that in ourselves. I am a very private
person, which makes having a blog a strange concept. I know, I've tried to
figure this out myself."

Getting health requires a lot of things. It is not easy to Lose Weight! It requires us to make goals and most likely break them, and with those goals is a commitment to ourselves and planning to try to not break them. How difficult is that! And on top of that trying to let your friends and family know what you are doing!

So far I have been good with my No S deal that I am going! I am not saying that it is a diet but it is something to make me a healthier person.

If you would like to read the blog that I have been reading on her personal weight loss it is http://www.myallnaturalweightloss.com/

I find it inspirational but if you don't then that's you!

No S

No it does not mean NO S***! I am starting to eat healthy! Yes it is hard! I enjoy food! I am just enjoying better food now! So I am doing No S.... no sugar, no sweets, no seconds, no snacks... I can have 2 days with snacks a week. That's it baby! I started on Saturday! Yes it is hard! My Hubby is not doing this with me. To be honest with you I don't know if he knows that I'm doing this! I have to get over my CRAVINGS! Yes we all have them! I would just indulge in mine a little too much. We will see how this goes over the next couple of weeks!

With this NO S deal that I am doing I hope to become a happier more joyful enthusiastic person and get things done that I want to get done! Do you think that I can do it! I'm not going to give anyone my over all goal! As of right not my over all goal has to be broken down into smaller more achievable ones! Like Eat healthier for 1 week straight. Start working out - not that I can do it daily!

You are coming along on this journey with me! Some days I may tell you what I eat and how much I exercise. Other days it just may be that I want to eat something that I can't have or if I have eaten the wrong thing! It also may be Inspirational Quotes to get me through this! Depends on what the day brings!

Weight UGH

So I have decided that a lot of my issues with being tired and having difficulties with myself are from feeling over weight! I am going to do something about it! At least I am hoping to do something about it.

This week I am going to write down what I eat and why I am eating it. What the emotions behind it are. After I do that I am only going to eat when I am hungary and I am going to stop when I am full. I also what to start the NO S Diet. No sugar, no snacks and no seconds (except on days that start with S).

So do you think that I can do it? I really am hoping that I can do this!

I also want to get a new Ipod (rick has hijacked mine and I really don't care I would just like to listen to some music and listen to some Podcasts) So I can down load some really up beat workout music and some Podcasts.

Another thing that I have learned about wanting to lose weight - it has nothing to do with exercise really it has to do with what you are eating and how much you are eating. We Americans have become too involved with food and we tend to take it too far. Look back like 50+ years and what people did for their meals! Meals are ment for 3 times a day! Eat a big breakast, a medium lunch and a small dinner that will last you the evening. Me I am trying not to eat past a certain hour of the day! I have chosen 7 pm 2 hours before bed time - so that my food has time to settle and I have time to either read a book or start on a sewing project. I don't just want to sit around and do nothing because if I do then I will just want to eat something.

I need to find a hobby or projects to work on the the evening. I have sewing and reading. It is now too dark at night to go for a walk (I don't like Night in my neighborhood + I'm afraid of what is in the dark). Any suggestions?