The LITTLE things

So I have wanted to write a blog or start a journal or something to get things out of my head... so sorry in advance if things seem jumbled....

Today just like every other day I got to spend it with my two amazing two year olds. They are truly amazing! I am so overwhelmed with how much I love them. The girls were jumping up and down on the couch and running around the house with their strollers!!

C has been such a mommys girl and being so shy. She actually hid behind my leg today when we went outside and the neighbors were out. I think that the neighbors, other than grandparents, are the people that the girls are around the most. So it was just weird that C was being so shy. But she comes up to me and give me the biggest hug and kiss and just wants to chill with mommy! I love that feeling.

W is just like her daddy... She is so out going and so funny and smart. Sometimes it is hard to look at her and no fall in love with her over and over again. Even on the days that she is cranky and fussy. I love her more and more. She can fuss over her sister sealing her blankie but then she can be the nicest and give her sister a hug when she got in trouble for doing something mean.

My girls will always be my girls even when the pull stuff out of the garbage or throw their food on the floor. They help me put their toys away at the end of the day and they act all crazy like when they are tired and ready for bed. They talk to me like we are having a real conversation and I don't even know half of what they are saying. They help me open the fridge so we can get them some milk or a snack. They pull everything off the counters and pull all the Tupperware out of the cupboards. They take off their own diapers and put them in the garbage. They help me wash the windows (dryer sheets seem to be the favorite) and help fold the laundry.

No matter what they are doing I never want to forget these little things that they do, even if it is really annoying. I know that they are my girls and I love them and nothing will ever change that.

So to the little things. In the end they will be the big things!

JANUARY - Goals

So I have been reading some family and friends blogs. Some about goals others about family and friends. Before reading them I decided that I am not going to be on Facebook anymore and that the only time for me to be on the computer is when the girls are asleep and the boys are watching TV OR I'm couponing. I started this on Monday.

Last night I was reading my sister-in-law Rachel's blog and it really made me think. Her blog was about man vs. women and about how women talk about people behind their backs (especially men). Do you appreciate the men in your life? I had to ask myself that question last night before I went to bed and I thought about it a lot today. Then I took it into a different context. Do I appreciate my life and the way I am living it? There are many other things that have been on my mind since then. So I have to say Thank you to Rachel for getting my mind rolling.

As for the goals I read a friends goals and she put her goals on her blog... I don't think that I am brave enough to put my goals on my blog. I will tell you that this year is going to be a year that I work on myself and try to get my family and friends healthy. Also one of my goals is to not watch TV all of the time. I am planning on writing in my journal everyday. As of right now I am doing really well on writing in my journal. I have actually been taking it around the house with me and I write things down that are bothing me and thinks that make me think. Also with how I now forget everything I can write it down because my journal is there with me. I have also decided that I don't care if my husband or children read it.

If anyone out there knows anything about couponing I am trying to learn how to do it and that sort of thing. I know that I need help so Please Help me.

I will try and blog more I am not promising anything and I will try and put more pictures of the girls up.

What has happened! 5.5 months

So my last post was 2 days before I had my girls! Crazy as it may be it is so true. They are almost 6 months old. They have been in out of the hospital for about 5 months. OH yes I had baby girls. My husband and I both thought that we were going to be having at least 1 boy..... LOL!! that didn't happen now did it because we have 2 very beautiful girls.
The 22 and 23 days at the hospital were very difficult. I was and still am amazed at how things went while they were there. We did not expect them to come home until August 5 my due date. The girls surprised the doctors and nurses. I had to be one of the happiest people when I was told that my girls could come home. I was expecting Courtney (baby B) to come home first and Wynnona (baby A) to come home a week or so later.

Above pictures are of Wynnona at the hospital she was 2lbs 11ozs. Below pictures are of Courtney she was 3lbs 8 oz

To be able to come home the girls had 3 requirements

1. Breath on their own.  - they passed this one in a week
2. Hold temperature and have continuous weight gain - it took 2 to 2 and 1/2 weeks to accomplish this one.
3. Feed all feedings from a nipple - let it be a bottle or breast. This is the one that I thought that was going to take the girls a while to get. Once Courtney got a bottle she really didn't want to let it go - she was a slow eater but she could eat once given the chance. Wynnona was taken off of the continuous feed on Friday and went to a bottle and did great. She just CHOWED down. It was almost as if she was starving. She was out on Monday!

Courtney was discharged to our custody on Sunday July 1st and Wynnona was discharged on Monday July 2nd. When we left the hospital at 1pm ish to head home I asked Rick so when do you want to leave - meaning that that was our week to go fishing/camping every year the rest of the family had left on Friday. Rick was pretty pissed off that he could not go because I was traveling between the hospital and home and he had 2 little baby girls in the hospital. After I asked him he just looked at me like what are you talking about..... I knew he wanted to go and had been up to something the night before. He had packed up almost everything that we needed and was ready to leave. We got home I showered and got the girls ready (packed up what clothing I had all of which was too big) and we left on our fishing trip.
By the time we headed home I was ready to start life at home with the new additions to the family.

The girls have changed my life drastically. I love them so much it is insane. We have had a rough road to get to where we are now but the girls are doing amazing and surprise me every day. At 4 months old they could roll over from being on their stomach to their backs. they are sucking on their thumbs and they are happy most of the time. It took Wynnona longer to realize that things were not as bad as she thought she has finally started to smile most of the time and is not crying most of the time. Courtney is just as happy as happy can be. She tend to squeal when she is happy and has a  high pitched cry. She is also a slobbery mess. Courtney wants to start crawling she knows that she wants to move but doesn't know how to do it quite yet. Wynnona wants to walk, she wants to stand all the time. I have started to put both of them in the walker and the johnny jump up. They love it. they can look around.

Yes my life is so different. I don't do much of anything anymore. I am a stay at home mom for sure. There is no way that I could work and enjoy my girls the way that I do. Some days I think that working would be so much easier than dealing with my girls, especially when they are fussy.
Motherhood is not what I expected it to be. It is at least 10 times harder. Sleep deprivation is only part of it. I will try and keep you updated on how things are going from here on out. But that all depends on how the girls do and how tired I am. I will also try and get you updated pics of the girls.

At Home Mommy!

As of May 25 I became a stay at home mom.... I don't really know how I feel about that yet but it is going to be a great adventure.

So far I am completely bored at home. I don't know what to do with myself. I have been tackling the house little by little. I am trying to baby proof different areas. I know that I can't do it all by myself so I just wait. I am trying to be better with my patients with others helping me out and with having to ask people for help.

I am excited and nervous to be come a mommy. I know that I am good with other peoples kids but how am I going to be with my own child? I know that I will find out once these babies are here. There are so many things that I am told don't worry about it will just come to you. Well I feel that if I don't worry about it then who is, how am I going to understand certain things. I worry about them so I won't have the weird crazy dreams. Even though some of the dreams put me at ease.



I have so many questions to ask but I don't know who to ask them. I don't know many people with twins and I feel that I'm in a way lost.

I have also decided that I will need something to from home to distract me from time to time. So I am in the start up phase of an at home business. My at home business is Advocare. It is a product that has been helping people lose weight and athletes performance levels. I am really excited to get this started and share my results with others. I will start taking the products once I have had the twins because I don't know how much longer they will be inside of me and don't really want to start something new.

Twenty Weeks!

Above are some pictures of the babies! You can tell what baby is which by the A and B on the bottom. Baby A in my belly is on the bottom and baby B is on top. As I was told they are on bunk beds. They will always be this way while I'm pregnant. Baby a will be the first out.

Yes I am 20 weeks! It is absolutely crazy... Half way there.

I wake up every day and say to myself WOW my belly has grown over night! Well this morning my wonderful husband looks at my belly and says wow your belly really does grow over night doesn't it. He just loves my belly! Sometimes he will just sit there and rub my belly. He loves me pregnant so much... sometimes it makes me think that he may want more babies after this! I don't know if I can handle that one!

So this week we had our 19 or 20 week ultrasound. The ultrasound was scheduled for 1 hour and when I got there the ultrasound tech was like you are having twins! Well 1 hour isn't long enough to get all the pictures that we need and they had to change my ultrasound for 2 hours. So there I sat... well shall I say laying there for 2 hours.... 1 hour per twin. By the time the ultrasound was done my back ached like a .... and my belly was so soar! I had to wait for 1/2 an hour after the ultrasound was done to see the doctor.... The doctor asked that I cut my hours to 40 a week and that I try and spread them out through out the week..... she also wants me to do the test for pre- eclampsia.

More Baby Pics

Hey so I have not updated ya'll lately so here is an updated.

Above are some of the pics from the last Ultrasound that I had. There are 2 of each. Twin A and Twin B....

Babies are growing like crazy... as is my belly. We are getting excited about them coming in 4.5 months. Yes I am half way there. The babies are the size of my hands. I will be getting another update on them on the 13th of March.... when I will be around 20 weeks. As of right now we are not finding out what we are having ( I have been thinking it may be easier to find out what they are so preparing the house for them and getting outfits but... I just don't know).

So when we get more information I will update again. Also if you have anyquestions go ahead and ask I'll answer!

Belly Pictures Week 14

The first two are taken on Friday 2/10/2012 at my parents house. This picture was taken on Saturday 2/11/2012! It is at my friend Miranda's house with her baby girl Kailee! These are from week 14!